almost there…..y la casa de sufismo con dave-o

I’m almost back to my good health I think with a bit more sleeping and drinking tons of fluids i should back in tip top shape to conquer the world wooo!!!  I mean who knew that a 99 cent cheeseburger from MCd’s could destroy a cold like no one’s business. lol  btw ( i love love love love love love those small cheese burgers!)  

 :D   Its nice to actually move around again and not have that annoying sinus pressure in my head. I really hate that feeling it annoys the hell out of me.  I am so happy to be done working two jobs, that was really taking a toll on me, I wasn’t getting much of sleep and the amount of traveling I was doing on the train wasn’t worth the money. I’m just glad that is done and over with whew!!!

I was bit upset with myself this sunday, I had started a small self journey but due to my stupid sickness I had to put it on hold blehhhhhh..  In anycase my partner Dave, has been attending a Khanaqah for the past several months he has always invited me to go along with his sister (side note : if you want to know more about Sufism I suggest you visit his blog  My Caravan of dreams its located on my blogroll)

Last week I thought it would be a great time for me to visit and I must say It truly was; I can only speak for myself because everyone life is different but, I was very much moved as though I felt i was rebuilt.  For some reason I had all this pent up anxiety and even possibly a panic attack I had wept so much that I felt I was at complete despair as though I was alone, for some reason though the more I kept trying to label my emotions, my reasons, trying to find logic as to why … the why… the more I tried to search for the why the harder it was for me to calm myself because in the end there was really no such thing as “why” it was just “is” . Once I was able to just let go I felt immensely relieved and I just had this calming feeling of happiness.  I was very much looking forward to visiting again this Sunday but I was just way too weak and sick, however I am definitely going this next Sunday !!!!

Late night with KGunnz

 Don’t you hate it when you can’t really sleep at all and its driving you nuts! I feel tired but for some reason I can’t really fall asleep luckily for me I have Happy to keep my bed warm and smelly with awesome dog fur.

In any case I have a small bone to pick with New York city MTA and the art work that is plastered on the walls in the subway trains. Actually I have a problem with one particular drawing in which I have a tendency to stare every time I’m on either the 2 or 5 train.  I stare at it most of the time because I really don’t feel like having people stab me in the face for looking at them being that my seat is looking in their direction . 

So this is the painting i see every day on the train when I stare up, its usually next to the ITTech ads and the ZONI learn English today ads.   For some reason this dam drawing bothers the living hell out of me every time I step on the fully and most of the time tightly packed trains with angy, tired, annoyed crabby ass people on the train. As I stand there staring up trying not to get pushed aside, shoved, slapped by a back pack or purse and walloped in the head by the NY times, this blasted picture seems to follow me into everywhere train ride. I’m not sure as to why it pisses me off, it could be the nice spring pastel colors or the smiling faces that ride the fast hare with its little paws running quickly to make it on time to its destination.  I think what really steams me is the fact that its the complete opposite from the picture. The last time I saw someone actually happy to ride the train are tourists. They have the pleasure of not having to ride the subway ever again. It’s smelly, its dirty, loud, the AC rarely works and its NEVER EVER EVER AND I MEAN EVER ON TIME!!!! So instead of having a fast paced hair whisking away in the picture it should really be a slow paced dirty smelly sloth.    BLEHHHHH!!!! :P    in the mean time check out my favorite show on earth!! its awesome and I love it to pieces. Its called ”Flight of the Conchords”.    

* feel free to sing along *

 

I’m the mother flippin’ Rhymenocerous
My beats are fly and the birds are on my back
And I’m horny
I’m horny
If you choose to proceed you will indeed concede
Cos I hit you with my flow
The Wild Rhino Stampede.
I’m not just wild, I’m trained,
Domesticated
I was raised by a rapper and rhino that dated
And subsequently procreated
That’s how it goes
Here’s the Hiphopopotamus
The hip hop hippo
They call me the Hiphopopotamus
My lyrics are bottomless
They call me the Hiphopopotamus
Flows that glow like phosphorous
Poppin’ off the top of this esophagus
Rockin’ this metropolis
I’m not a large water-dwelling mammal
Where did you get that preposterous hypothesis?
Did Steve tell you that, perchance?
Steve.
My rhymes and records they don’t get played
Because my records and rhymes they don’t get made
And if you rap like me you don’t get paid
And if you roll like me you don’t get laid.
My rhymes are so potent that in this small segment
I made all of the ladies in the area pregnant
Yes, sometimes my lyrics are sexist
But you lovely bitches and hoes should know I’m trying to correct this.
Other rappers dis me
Say my rhymes are sissy.
Why? Why? Why?
What?
Why exactly?
What? Why?
Be more constructive with your feedback, please. Why?
Why?
Why, because I rap about reality?
Like me and my grandma drinking a cup of tea?
There ain’t no party like my nanna’s tea party.
Hey! Ho!
I’m the motherflippin’

Summer is Ending …. finally !

 

Today was probably one of the last days for it to be humid! I’m really sick and tired of this disgusting humidity let alone being sweaty and feeling clammy all day. Having swamp balls isn’t very fun, but then again I wouldn’t know I don’t have any balls. HMMMM I am looking forward to the marvelous Fall and Winter! I’m not sure why really but  I am so thrilled and super duper ..( yes i said super duper) excited for the season. It could be that I finally feel happy and actually excited over something. Hey don’t get me wrong 1 dollar whoppers on Tuesdays are always exciting however, Its been a really rough transition living in NYC. I’ve held a lot of anger, and regret towards the poor city. I hated being in this city so much that the very mention of the name New YOrk city would drive me to be angry. I’ve bitched and complained to everyone back home in Los Angeles on how a terrible city this place was.      womp womp womp womp (the sad sound of a whining violin)

But now things have changed and I have finally put away my regret, my anger, and most of all my past to look forward to the new adventures in which my new home and lovely new city holds for me. I can finally smile and say ” It feels good to be in NYC”  I’ve conquered the roaming beast  also known as the MTA and learned the tricks of the trade when traveling through out.  There is so much to do and so much to see, I mean where else are you gonna find the guy on the 2 train selling DVD’s and batteries at the same time, or the guys selling starburst candy, snickers, oreos and M &M peanut yet sadly all he has are only M&M peanut : ( .  

             

      Fall is a great time for change and to slow everything down, I think I finally have the chance to actually feel happy for once and take care of what I need to do. But before I do I need to buy sum M&M’s !!!!