and the beat goes on

Today I am feeling……. EXHAUSTED!

 

 

 

 

Song of the day…     

No song today I didn’t have my ipod with me, so I didn’t get a chance to really listen to  any song on the train.

 

 

 

Its been awhile since I”ve blogged, maybe a few days have past or even weeks, I”m not sure I don’t really remember I’m awful at consistancey for some odd ball reason. Many things have been changing some for the better others for worse but always in a forward direction. I just realised though, it will be close to a year I’ve started to blog. I remember blogging before Fall started. I was working as a dog walker and i finally accepted my life living her in NYC.  I think i’m ready for the change of season again. The summer wasn’t so bad but, at some point the heat did scramble my brain for a bit.   

Don’t you hate it though when things aren’t working right or the way you wanted it. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Monday….MOnday … la la la la la ..

Today I am feeling………………….  Exhausted yet Confident

 

Song of the Day……..

Can’t go wrong with Miss Lauryn Hill, before she went buck ass crazy .

 

         I’m really over summer, today’s heat was so freaking unbearable .. I thought for sure I’m going to end up throwing up all the place as I walked to the bus. Sure, it wouldn’t be too appealing but hey.. what can you do ? Luckly I didn’t puke but WTF is up with this dam weather. The entire summer it has been nothing but this annoying depressing rain. I”m just done and over with it. Summer gets a big fat F for this year! YOU HEAR ME F!!!!!! lets hope Fall and winter won’t disappoint me.    Aside from that I did go back to work today, it was my first day back and I was happy to say it went actually quite well. YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!  I usually have a tendency to make myself sick and unhappy the day before i go back to work which are usually Sundays.  Definitly not a happy camper but, I’m happy to say all is well.   However, I am lonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnng over do for a nap that’s for dam sure. I’m about to pass out due to the heat.

 

MY………….. RETURN….. … hopefully!

I am hope to make return to blogging at full force, I know I haven’t been blogging as of much lately.

BOOOO!

However I am definitly going to start blogging again, probably every other day just so that I don’t bore myself to death lmao.   I think I’ll add a Song of the day along with a video yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh maybe even a quote of the day as well along with how i’m feeling, or art of the day we’ll see I’ll figure it out on my  next post which will be in a few minutes. SO STAY TUNED……………………………. or not lol u do have too.

the return of KGunnz aka Kali Goddess

 more to come……………. soon ……………………… <3

Happy VD to everyone!!

I just wanted to wish everyone a Happy Valentine’s Day !!!!   hopefully I’ll have a new blog by tonight thats if I feel better .. cross you fingers party people.

 

one down, next to get use too…

I have finally completed my job in which I did for one longggg year well almost a year in March it would be a complete year. I love dog walking its always fun and dogs are never picky or choosey about people they love everyone which is always nice .. well that depends if you live in the Bronx because its seems that everyone here has an overly musclar pitbull wearing a large chain around its neck with a lock and having to “represent”  to please their owner is a bit far fetched to me, but hey to each is own I suppose. I’m going to miss my little doggie clients they were always pleasant and wonderful with me.   I can now dedicate my time to my 2nd job, it a lot of physical work I’m starting to get use to the new surroundings …… so far so good. But I must why are people who live on that side of town so dam snobish!! its like the moment you make a certain amount of money, the meaner you become. I really can’t stand that I always try very hard to be plesant to everyone. After all everyone deserves respect but, sometimes its so hard do that  when the very person next to you considers you to be worthless because you don’t have designer brands or let alone afford to purchase the most expensive items. Sometimes as I walk by these expensive stores I often wonder is it really living the good life being able to afford all these items, I mean will it actually make any difference or impact in my life?? I highly doubt it. 

Anyway……… I’ve been wanting to start drawing again the great thing is now that my job starts in the evenings I have plenty of time to work on my art during the day wooooo which is wonderful. I have plenty of new ideas to get started on.   oh and Happy Pre Valentine’s day!!!!!!!!!!  oh and Happppppppppppy Birthday mommy!! (just in case she’s reading my blog) lol

 

I’m trying really hard to keep up with my blogging hopefully now that my schedule is slower I can be on top of my blogs. we’ll see … (keepin my fingers crossed)

the ride home on a late train

I am beat!!! just  dead beat tired, not sure as to why, but I I feel so tired today mainly from my new job it requires me to be on my feet for about a good 5 hours. I don’t mind the work load but, I do realise is that I work so much better by myself as oppose to working in a group. Plus i’m awful at taking orders from people especially when I have to be train by another person. It seems I have a hard time taking direction because I like to be in charge lol …. Its not a problem though the best thing is to shut my mouth and do what I’m told. Then there won’t be any issues what so ever. Lets hope my 2nd day will go better. crosses fingers………… oh and why do all these crazy people ride the trains in the late evening ..

new year … new job ….. … and can anyone teach me the skills of small talk aka chit chat..

Things have been going pretty well for the 09, I wasn’t depressed on my 27 birthday nor was overly emotional at the end of the year .. In fact I was quiet ” hammered” (as we East los angelenos like to say) when it was new years eve. I slept quite soundly only to awaken to my own drool on my pillow… or was that my little moey Hmmmm.   In any case not once did I feel homesick or even have the need to want to visit Los Angeles.  ISN’T THAT CRAZY!!!!  How ever I am definitely ready for a new apartment to match my new job.  I had the final training on Thursday.. Its a lot of busy work but, nothing I can’t handle.   My only little herbish ..yes i said herbish( meaning dumb or silly aka Unsmart)  my herbish little issue is the fact I have an immensely difficult time with small talk.  Sure sounds funny but, I really have a hard time starting conversations let alone keeping them. I like to blame my parents for this ( shame on you Mr. and Mrs. Cisneros)   When I was a young little Karina my parents embedded in my little cranium ” speak only when spoken to “  In fact I use to love to talk a lot when I was a child when adults would have conversations in the car I clearly remember butting in all the time to throw my 2 cents.   Apparently my father was not interested on hearing my 2 cents. He would give the “angry papa bear look” which would translate to ‘ LOCK IT UP AND SHUT IT UP!”  lmao sorry I have tendency to laugh when i hear those two phrases.   uhmmm yeah  back to my story … so my father would always tell me to only speak when spoken to, be polite , don’t be rude, answer their questions, and then shut it up.  I know I know… it sound so mean but now that I’m older I understand what my father meant, HOWEVER!!!  during the times my parents did want me to speak I was silent like a corpse.. not a peep, not a sound, not even a cricket or a TADAAAA!   and of course my parent would be upset with me for my terrible manners of not speaking…. and so now let us fast forward to the future, to a 27 year old Karina who now can chit chat even if her life depended  on it.

 

 So your probably asking … ok Karina well then just don’t chit chat !! and your right … but, because of my new job I have no choice but to chit chat.  I am a personal Care Asst. for a family and I love the job the people I work for are very nice, I just feel a tad bit out of sorts at times because I can’t seem to carry out a conversation.  Maybe I should just walk around and talk to random people.  hmmmm any suggestions????

cold air, awful office workers…

Even though I’ve been living here in NYC for the past sum amount of years, I’m still a bit iffy when I have to travel to parts of the city I’m not to familiar with, most of it would have to be in Manhattan. Thanks to my dog walking job I’ve mastered the Upper East Side I also have seemed to master Madison Ave and everything else in between on that side. Which i’m Pretty happy about, I’ve also tamed that great beast called the MTA. Its pretty cool that I’m actually able to give people directions on how to get to certain streets or locations. YAY FOR ME!  However, i have a new job its located Midtown West on the westside around the area of Colmbus circle.  I have no clue what is in the area plus I have never been on the 1 train oddly enough. Now that I have my 2nd new job which will be starting at the end of this week I can begin to teach myself about the area of  midtown westside. I’m super excited to start my new job, its been so long and for once I guess you can say i feel important hmmm not i felt unimportant or worthless before but, I always enjoyed having a job where I actually work, and its for a good cause.  In Los Angeles I worked as a Special Education Asst. I loved every minute of it, I loved it so much that I even did it for free for about a good year before I was paid by the state. It was so much and I enjoyed making connections with the children it would always make my day. Plus who doesn’t love working on arts and crafts or circle time, singing songs, playing on the yard, eating lunches with all your class mates.  Actually the best time of school for me was when I was a child when I attended Kindergarten in the afternoons MANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!! let me tell you that was the best times ever, not only did i get an awesome lunch before i came into class but I got to sit with my classmates plus  I had the nicest of teachers and asst. I loved school so much !!! BUT THEN……….  i had to be switched in the mornings and everything went to hell … but thats another story.

 

OHHH and can someone please tell why do companies, schools, offices, etc why do they hire the most ANGRIEST, MEANEST, RUDE, NO MANNERS women to work as sectaries or pay roll.WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY!!  can someone please answer me that question???? I have yet to find a nice lady who works in an office without all the sass and attitude!!!

a new life

Well this brand spanking new year has brought in good news, I finally have a job now YAY!!( APPLAUSE)  Isn’t it wonderful I can now add cheese on my whoppers or even have a large coke to my Angus Burger wooooo.

I’m hoping to start soon though, i’m a bit excited and even though I’ll be working two jobs I’m happy to be super busy again, let alone being able to make some payments which are long over due esssh.  The only crappy part is that I won’t be able to travel back to Los Angeles to visit family any time soon. I have to wait atleast 6 months or more in order to do that, which blows big nutty brown monkey balls > .   oh and a side note don’t ever eat anything that has been cooked earlier in the week, and just because you add cheese to it for the taste then throwing into a sandwhich won’t make it taste better.   I had to learn that the hard way….. and hard it was indeed.